The Relationship Funda

Saturday 30 April 2011

I am still so busy but thought to take a small reprieve from the work and penning one more down. Here it goes. So what is your relationship status? Well, sorry I am not prying into your privacy but yeah, this question which appears in almost all the social networking sites and few other places that often befuddles me.. First, they don’t mention which relationship are they talking about..First time, I saw the question in Orkut, I felt like answering “ In a relationship with my father and mother since birth” :D

Well, this question has turned into such a mess that it always relates to a toka/toki (read guy or girl). And what is worse!!They don’t even allow you to put up your own status, they are already pre-defined. Now when we talk about relationship status, the trendy and the modern meaning of that is to define the guy/girl you have a affair with and how it is moving on. Like facebook lists the status as one of the following- Single ( which effectively is a safe option), in a relationship, committed, married, its complicated, divorced, separated n blah blah whatever!! Funny it is, maybe it says that apart from these, you ought not have any other relationships.

Now talking about the above mentioned statuses. Single!! It includes different categories of people- never-into-a-relationship types, all Indians-are-my-brothers-and-sister types, the dignified image maintaining types, the bhaw-eating types, the secret-in a relationship types and yes, not to forget the frustus and the despos ;). Don’t you think there should be a sub-category under single??Definitely YES. Moving to “in a relationship”. These people are the confused types. They had an option to select “committed” but those big hearted people keep their options open, to change to single or broken off or its complicated and what not!!Kudos to them. No one can manipulate relationship statuses better than them. The make-ups and then the break-ups have become quite a cliché, or maybe a part of an utopian world and is well-accepted everywhere ;)

Then the types I consider most funny, the “committed” ones. Here I would like to mention that these people always stay committed, you don’t find a day when they aren’t committed. But the pity is they stay committed with different people in different patches of life. So when someone says “I am committed”, all I feel like saying is “indeed”. Well, I don’t deny that there might be some of those really committed people, no offence to them but its better not to say that you are committed till you end up together in life. It’s a very risky term to use, coz even after ending up together, they have the option to select another status later “separated“ or “divorced”, which completely contradicts what they call themselves. Human life is very capricious. So, its better not to make fun of self using that status. Coming to “its complicated”. I hardly know what it means. It is indeed complicated. “Married” according to me , is a very stable and genuine status. And the list goes on.

Now whatever the relationship status imply or however it complies to the societal standard of relationship making, its just a gen-x trend, and is very vague to define or understand. And what have popularized the idea is the emergence of the social networking sites. When you talk about a relationship (as in couples wala relationship), its better being committing yourself by heart or soul, rather than posting relationship statuses. Yup, fb also gives you the option of not mentioning a relationship status.

As for me, I personally define my own relationship status myself, not necessarily , I leave it to social networking sites. My list of status sounds like this- “ crushed; new crush; crushed again; I like her, she doesn’t know; I like her, yet to find her relationship status; I like her, she has a bf; Nth one sided love on, she hardly knows” and so on :D. Well whatever, it maybe, you have to admit , these are genuine relationship statuses.That motivates me to share my most recent relationship status “ She is the one of the cutest I ever saw, I give my friend a treat everytime I catch a glimpse of hers, and it gets over there till I see her again” :D.

Signing off
A.M.

C ya soon!!

Sunday 24 April 2011
Hello dear blog

Due to some reasons, I won't be able to update you for some days. I mean I am kinda very busy those days. Please bear with me. And do miss me, huh!!!I promise I will be back soon..be good to your readers..Love u dearie!!Miss you too.C ya..Take care..

Your creator
A.M.

Tummylicious

Tuesday 19 April 2011

How do you feel when u slid in a spicy pizza into mouth or maybe some delicious looking chowmein garnished in a manner that even the looks and the aroma of it makes your mouth water?? So, we call such food delicious or yummylicious and so on. But dunno y, God has his own plans in everything. Now if u cogitate on the issue, you will find that all yummylicious food are tummylicious!!

Lemme define the neology. Tummylicious is something that adds to your tummy. Consider almost anything that tastes good and you will find that it is too tummy-friendly. Here, I would like to mention that I am a pure gourmet, a real connoisseur of good food. Now again good food has got varied definitions for individuals. For me, its that, that soothes the tongue. But I find it too hard when the same add flabs to the tummy.

Its been quite a few months now since I have hardly attended college. All I do is stay at home, and hug my pillow and sleep more than half a day. And yes, as I said, I take a lot of pleasure in eating. Eating tummylicious food to be specific. No matter how much I try to restrain myself, I end up gorging it swearing myself to stop from the next day, but the tomorrow never comes. And the result, well, u know it well.

These days I find it hard to catch on to my round wobbling coggling tummy. It feels as if my tummy walks a foot ahead of me. And when lie on the bed, it seems as if it lies as a mound beside me grinning and smirking at me. Ahh!!I really find it hard to hold on to it. It impairs my activities. Nor can I give up tummylicious food!! All I wish I could cut out the flabs out of my tummy :(. I am too lazy to exercise.

The love for eating food pertains only to the tongue. Once it is through into the food pipe, it is nutrition. So the foods yummylicious for the tongue and tummylicious after it crosses the tongue. So , theres one option. The food can be chewed, tasted and then thrown out!!Thats a novel way of making a yummylicious food non-tummylicious. And I guess only people like me can confer such ideas.. ;)

Signing off
A.M.

Dil to Bacha hai ji....

Sunday 17 April 2011

The heart!!Yup that’s what m talking about..It is such a spiraling oscillating pendulum. Takes a complete 360o at times!!And it is so very immature…As puerile as a lil baby!!It thumps all the time-whether lifes in a state of bliss or it is pierced with thorns, but indeed, the “dil” is indeed a bacha. And maybe dat is why we say “always think from your mind, not your heart”..Being dillogical can be a dangerous passion coz the dil often lacks logic.

Anyway, today I am in kind of a light hearted mood.. Don’t misunderstand me, m in a light-“hearted” mood, not a light mood. All I mean is that, my hearts chilled out. Not very sure about the reason, but the dil is so “bacha”ish that it is often too hard to associate reason to it. Between, I watched the movie “dil to bacha hai ji”.

So the idea of writing this comes completely from that movie. 3 guys seeking for their love-buddies and illusioned into the wrong girls, which they realize at the end. Well, the movie lacked substance, was quite predictable and too slow, but I don’t think it would be too wise to give this Madhur Bhandarkar’s flick a slip. Somewhere and somehow, it portrays the reality about the volatility of the heart, how mercurial the heart can turn out. Indeed!!How often do we get lost in a person before realizing if he/she is actually the right one. Well, duno about others, I tend to have 4-5 crushes everyday :D.

Its just not about people or crushes!!How often do u do something coz your heart says it and later when you think of it, smile at your stupidity, or squirm up blushing in embarrassment. But yeah, it is sometimes good to put the heart to work, coz it’s the heart that reflects your lighter side, that reflects what you really are, devoid of all your complicacy. Sometimes it makes you do crazy things, but without the craze, life lacks the vivacity , the iridescence we aspire for.
And you know what the best thing about “dil” is? It gets healed up sooner than the mind does. U must have used the term “light-hearted” but do u ever say “light minded”??umm..no!! Its your mind that manipulates your heart but the heart never changes anything.. It stays as cool and young and aspiring as ever!!So friends, my verdict- a logical head and a happy-go-lucky dil, the combo rocks.

Signing off
A.M.

LOST!!!

Thursday 14 April 2011
For people, who have by chance, entered my blog and encounter this post, I request or rather warn you to scroll down and find better topics below. As for this is completely personal and written for myself and nothing but seems to come out of a loser. So PLEASE skip this one. You will just be wasting your time.

The déjà vu is back again. Just like we say, history repeats itself..It haunts me, taunts me in a worse way than it did four years back. And m just being worse in facing it. They say fools repeat their mistakes and winners learn from it. But what about those who can’t figure it out?? Are they labeled categoryless? I hardly know.

2011..Aah!!How I wished…..!! Well, that’s all we can do. But half the probabilistic decision is out of our reach. Now 2011 has been a disaster. And God knows how much more is to come. But the worse thing is , as very unlike me, I have started running away, m hell scared now to face things. I am trying to find confined corners, m scared to help myself, trust myself and face myself. I duno but the first time, I am unable to motivate myself and to have patience. I haven’t been able to put up to even a single expectation of “the” most precious people in my life, but the worst thing is that, they have never blamed me, no matter, what I did, they have just been a source of encouragement and inspiration.

Right at the moment, I am really lost!! Every moment, I just expect the clock to tick away fast, but the obstinate thing does it the other way. I sleep half a day, too scared to wake up. Staying awake floods my mind with negativity. NO!!!I haven’t ever been so. I used to get disappointed before but I was a hardcore optimist. But I struggle to keep up my hopes now. I struggle to struggle. I just hope that this phase passes away soon. I want my real me back. This definitely ain’t me. The real me is playing hide and seek with me. A motivation is all that I desperately need now. Something good at least, which can strengthen up my lost self-conviction. Well that’s all, I can hope for. And now, don’t complain if u have come this far coz I warned you to skip this post.

Signing off
A.M.

Wish, I was a Fish!!

Monday 11 April 2011

The title reminds me of a skul friend who, a few days ago, revealed that she called me a fish. Flustered with the title conferred, I questioned her the reason for such a name. She said that my nose is too big and sharp and my lips protrude out..yikes!! That is what you call a real ID-PD.

Well, however, cherishing the memories of day before yesterday, I would be happiest not just to be called a fish but to be a fish. Know that it sounds dumb and asinine but true!! Yep friends, I was in watery heaven. I was gamboling in some clear blue water least concerned about anything in the world, lost in the revelry with my friends… I was in Ocean World!!!!

I won’t really want to elucidate the events preceding our visit coz I dunno how many *beep*s, me and my friend would have blurted out before we started (must say there were reasons for it) but anyways finally it happened. We started at around 1 in the afternoon, a group of 14. 4 of us had lunch in a thatched roof wala hotel in Phulnakhra (we had no other option, but the sole aim was d stuff d tummy), the others were so excited that they hardly cared to eat and off we go. We passed the EAST college on the way which looked like a colossal palace, no matter, it can’t given any competition to our eco-friendly CET. We reached there around 2 and then, what happened is history!!LOL.. I mean lots happened. We were like the dormant volcanoes that erupted out there..

Whether it be the artificial wave world which sent us dangling in the water swinging like helpless kids in a puddle or it be the world of shower where the water rose as a fountain making a wonderful picture before it kissed the ground or it be the water rides, which felt more like a free fall under gravity before splashing nose deep into the clear blue water under the scorching sun, it was all a blissful reprieve from the occupancy of the real world. It was like a sojourn from the worldly lithosphere to the heavenly hydrosphere. Well, not to forget equally lovely were the dancing mermaids out there (if you at all get what I mean) , rather call them a treat to the eyes ;). Whatever it maybe, it was overall a scintillating experience for the 14 of us though I must say, for the first time, I had the drowning sensation, first time I realized how to feels to be under water, and hence I would never want to have a watery grave:(.

Now moving on to the point of a fish. The mention of a fish here is more metaphorical than literal. Water symbolizes our feelings as it constantly moves and flows. Deep water symbolizes your sub-conscious feelings. The waves represent the ups and downs in our life. But a fish is like a conquerer of water. Be it be deep or shallow, being a fish is like being capable of realizing our thoughts feelings or objectives no matter how confusing they are. It is like moving freely in the vast world no matter how many obstacles you stumble upon. Morever fish in feng shui is also considered to be a creator of good luck and attractor of positive outcomes. So I want to be the fish who can manifest success and also move in the world with fun and frolic least bothered about the shackles which puts a negative impact on life. Aah!!I am going outta my mind. Lets stop here.

Signing off
A.M.

The Blogging Mania

Friday 8 April 2011
3 days of dormancy!!!3 days!!!!Now that is something very untypical of my blog. However, I am not sure, whether it is the characteristic of the archetype blogger or I am engulfed into blog-o-mania!!

More than a month now I have been writing my blog, I would like to state my feelings. Till a few days ago, I wasn’t very sure what exactly my hobby was. I am addicted to music, true, but I am not sure whether music can be termed to be a hobby coz that’s something half the world says. So a hobby is supposed to be genuine and blogging gave me one. Now writing is something I have been enjoying a lot. Its not just about penning down my experience thoughts or feelings, but its about understanding them better. Its about giving my thoughts a meaning, its about expressing and making my heart free.

Well I am not sure whether I can match the coolness of “babe” in my language or the brilliance of my senior SM or my junior SM..(oops..I just realized both their initials match..maybe SMs are born writers or poets ;)) but ya, I can match the frequency at which my heart creates thoughts. I wanted people to read my blog and comment and all. Don’t think too many people actually do that. At some point of time I felt discouraged, but realized soon that, its about expressing myself to myself, not about publicizing myself, its about doing something I enjoy, something I should have done way before. And if noone, ”dude” and “babe” are always there to be forced to read my blog. Between, theres been just one person, a gud frnd of mine, who has commented honestly on my blog’s quality. According to her, my blog is not reader friendly as I use “difficult” words. Well, I am not very sure of that but I appreciated that she did give some feedback. Noone else does.

Not sure how to end this post. But yeah I am happy that I am blogging. And I promise to speak my heart out at Ansuman Express. Its just a beginning and a long journey awaits.


Signing off
A.M.

Murmurs Of Expressions.....

Tuesday 5 April 2011

O thou biased Lord
All i wished was for a insight so broad
Not the one sans imagination, sans creativity
To pour the melody into a cup of poetry

Don't i get the entree and egress
Beading the thoughts seem such a mess
The sun, the moon, the stars , the sky
nothing makes sense, but i yearn to try

I sit or sleep but all I find
A deluge of sentiments invade my mind
the urge to paint with elysian hues
words evade me, bemused in the blues

O lord!!my aggreived heart shouts and demurs
why expression is so esoteric, it murmurs
why such fancy while distributing innate gifts
is it that,with others, you have a rift???

How I wish my thoughts had a cadence
to endow my writings an ethereal sense
All i wish to achieve is the resplendence
from the works of the budding poets' pens

Signing Off
A.M.

A Ray of Hope

Monday 4 April 2011

A colossal crowd looks with shining eyes for the golden moments to follow as the flamboyant Ranchi dasher heaves one into the crowd..A straight six over long-on, something very characteristic of him but missing since long and there for a brief moment, time stopped to exist. Everything seemed to be in slow motion for a moment and then there is thunder.. No, its not the Rain God playing foul play, he would have dared not, that would have been a sheer impudence for the Cricketing demigod who rushed onto the field like a guy in the sweet 16. The thunder erupted suffusing through millions of hearts and seemed like a mere euphony. Yes, it was the 1.21 billions Indians screaming and reveling. India had won the ICC Cricket World Cup 2011 finals.

The emotions were all let out, the cheers were all spelt out, the Lankans were all smelt out and history was melt out. Yes, it was history re-written. “No team has ever won a world cup in its backyard, no team has ever lost a WC final after an individual scored a century, 2 out of 9 finals have been won by the team batting second” all were left out to be mere speculations. Here was cast a new history, a history that is going to embellish every Indian heart for years to come.

The team has played some splendid cricket seen never before and even Sangakkara admitted that the better team deserved to win. I would say cheats deserve to lose. Forget that. Some real memorable scenes took place. The Indian teams carrying the cricketing GOD on their arms, he was indeed GOD personified- It was THE Sachin Tendulkar. And all his dreams satiated. Even the only one that was left out from his resume. Virat Kohli: “ He has carried the burden of India’s expectations for 22 years, no big deal if I carry him for a short while”. Oh wow!! Not just a witty saying, it was very well done out in practice, that is Indian Youth for you. And when India lifted the World cup, that was a really special moment, that was real Xtasy 2k11..Hail the Men in Blue

Now all these things makes me delve upon the performance of the team in the last WC. A hell and heaven difference. A disaster and a legend difference. That too in the presence of all the big guns then. So we call these the bad days. We just need to let them go. Four years can be more than enough to create a legend from nowhere.. Now this serves to me as a real source of hope and optimism. Who knows where we are after 4 years from now in the next WC!! May be somewhere where we feel like on the top of the world. All we need is patience and a conviction that “Yes it is possible”. That’s all that I can carry in my heart now. Things are gonna be better soon. And I hope you too should think the same way. Its time to BLEED BLUE ;)

Signing Off
A.M.

She is the ONE

Friday 1 April 2011

The question still lingers-“ was she the one?”..The bug lurks in the subconscious mind playing hide and seek with the sixth sense. Was she the one or is it one of those preconceived hallucination???Now whatever it was, the mind still adheres to the fact that till now, she was the only one in so many. A bug which hasn’t been annihilated from the heart using any kind of anti-virus and lacks a format option. However, it keeps on refreshing itself at unwanted instants and makes me think again and again about a question.

It happened to me just when it happens to all. Maybe it was a hormonal imbalance (at least that is how I define it) but it wasn’t transient as in all other cases. It stayed and stayed and never left. As if it was always there to stay. Well, the entity was a concoction of virtues and vices but all I knew was from hearsay. I see it so very often but I don’t think I have ever “met” yet. I pass by it as close as you can think but never have I got an opportunity to look boldly into the eyes. And I tell you the reason is just that it is it.

All this often reminds me of the blunder. Makes me ashamed of the stupid immaturity showed, when I think of it, makes me squirm in embarrassment but all I believe that, in whatever was done, poured the real heart out. 3 feedbacks on the matter is all I have.She(1)-“I can’t believe you can do this. Disgusting”. He(1)- “That was OK. You would have done it some day or the other. But Chill”.She(2)-“ No one has ever done such sort of a thing to me. I wish someone had. I am all smiles at it”. Now those three left the insight even more befuddled. I still dunno what was done was actually right or wrong, but all I believe, I wished just to be all so casual and decent about it and indeed bring out a smile. Well, that is past. But she isn’t.

Everytime it comes to the horizon of my vision, it feels like I have known it for ages. But the truth is it is still a stranger to me, a complete stranger. The more I forget it, the more it appears, the more it engulfs the mind, the more the heart wishes to speak. But it all seems like a mirage, someone or something that is beyond me and still seems so close. All it has given me is some memories to cherish and I will always hold on to those. Maybe that was all that I was destined for. Things, people and beauty, I have seen much more enticing, but it is just mesmerizing, at least for me. All I wish is that there are few things it should know even if there’s not many things I can say, but all I can say is whatever I did say, and that is something it will never know. And when it comes to the question if she was the one, the only answer I have is “ I really wish she was the one”. And to add to the euphony is something my friend once dedicated to the story that stays ever incomplete:



APRIL FOOL guys ;)..U would never get such a genunine misrepresentation..Sometimes, think before u read..But that song is one I really like.And I wanted you all to listen to it.
Signing Off
A.M.