Good After-Midnight

30 July 2011 3.30 AM

Hi folks!!Good….uhh!!Its not morning yet..may be I can say Good After-midnight..But I need to find a proper wish for this un-humanly time soon enough coz it has been appended to my life as another part of my humdrum existence since a month..My day has a beginning and an ending to it, but the part in between , is more like a blank, it misses out a pause and a refresh button. It goes on with commas all over and badly yearns for full stops. Its like my life is begging to me “Oh my bearer, give me a break” but all I can answer “sorry, I am helpless”.

Well, I just woke up half an hour ago and packed up my bag, I am going home tomorrow evening :). That’s the only good part though, but the truth is I wake up everyday around this time. Now you must be wondering what I do? Lemme tell you, I stare all over my room, at the walls, at my lappy, and all around me, completely blank, wondering where I am and why I am, And yes, to switch off the lights too. My sleep is outta my control now, I wake up around this time just to switch off the lights in addition to whatever I mentioned above.

Lemme tell you how a typical day goes in my moribund life. Wake up at 7, get ready, go to work at 8.30, come back around 7.30 (though it can stretch longer depending upon requirements), spend an hour talking on phone, dinner, chitchat with friends and then to bed, but when I sleep, is a mystery to me, but pretty soon though. And interestingly, this special routine is limited to me and my friend, all other GETs come back as early as 6 from office. The reason being me and my friend have been alloted in a project. Of course, we do get to learn a lot, even our mentor is all so friendly and nice, but the sudden transition from being a well accomplished bunk master in college to being a workaholic has come about as a calamity for me. It is more like being trapped in an unending limbo with life sucking all sap out of you.

C’mon, you don’t call it life if you can’t have time to socialise properly or ogle at a gorgeous babe on TV or cherish some good moments of your life or to spend the money you earn. And what makes it worse is the complete absence of the opposite sex at workplace which leads to the complete depletion of any motivation to work, what in actual terms you can conceptualise as hazardous working conditions ;) :P.That indeed is the first question every friend of mine asks me, questions about the presence of the so called “maal”s, but maal chodo, we don’t have girls.

Chalo too much of my dukhiyari kahani. 2 more days and I get my first salary. I haven’t yet thought how exactly to spend the whole lot but I do have few things in mind. I will get something for my parents, but I don’t have the slightest idea what to, I request you to suggest. Then I will get something for some special people in my life, some of my really good friends, as a token of love and appreciation for being what they have been to me. But the interesting part is, I am planning to do something crazy too, something I have never done, call me stupid or whatever, but the flavour of life fades away without a bit of craziness ;).

Just hope things get better. The song playing in my lappy now is “Tanha Dil” by Shaan and I love that song. Pretty much sums up my condition :P. Anyway, I don’t feel like sleeping anymore now. Maybe I will watch a movie or something. Once again a good after-midnight. Lots of thanks to all guys and lots of love to all chicks reading this :P

Signing off
A.M.

The Corporate World

24 July 2011 1.00 am

Hello bak!!I am again back with details of my so very monotonous but happening life right at the moment. I am sorry if you feel that always I go “me, me and me!!” in my blog, but may be this is the only place where I can attach a bit of narcissism and snobbish behaviour into my thoughts.. ;)..Anyway I will be back to some lighter stuff soon enough, but that’s not the point.

I really miss my college days, job life sucks bigtime, especially when your superior assigns you responsibilties so soon, like you have to talk and behave like a manager, manage people, make them to do tasks and get them done in time, and if you don’t, you get screwed. More so, you can say, screw or get screwed.. C’mon we are just trainees now. The only thing that feels good is to be called “Sir” by my sub-ordinates.. Like I got a scolding and a lecture by my senior today for calling everyone I met everywhere Sirs and bhaiyas…How am I supposed to know they are my subordinates!!!And the funny feeling is I call them bhaiya, they call me Sir.

One more thing I learnt..Save your ass anyway, no matter whatever happens to someone else. Following moral values and ethics in corporate world can rather be risky, and I tell you its foolish. Its not Live and let live, its kill or get killed..I might sound like an asshole saying all the amoral stuff, but believe it or not, its very true, rectitude has no altitude in corporate life. Next comes the concept of handshakes. I don’t remember when last I shaked my hand with someone before joining the job. Now I get to know so many hands, before I know the people. And its funny, the various types of ways in which people shake hands, we will talk about it in another post. Also the distance I walk here everyday, its almost like having a morning and evening walk in a day, so don’t be very surprised if you meet a slim ansuman next time ;). However the only good news is our pay structure has been revised and hiked :)

Now moving on next topic, My 1st corporate party. It was like I reached office around 8.40 am and was there till 7.30pm and from there we went straight to the farewell party of two of our department seniors. Well we were just four trainees from our department and around 15 more seniors including the department head. It was a room with comfy sofas all over arranged in a round fashion, there was a home threater audio system playing soft music. There was some light conversation between the members and then came the starters. Not a hard guess, the starters included Haywards 5000 beer and royal stag whisky ;). Thanks God, they had thums up too :D. Our GM, me and my friend were the only exceptions into the no-beer-whisky sections though our seniors did try to lure us, but they never forced. Here I would like to say I don’t drink not coz I am one of those bhadra choras but coz I have already tasted a can of before and it tastes horrible. Now whatever it is, suddenly the quite formal party turned into a rave party. Loud rock party music and dance continued till 11 after which we had our dinner. The food tasted damn too good given a few reasons, 1- We don’t get too good food in our hostel, its just manageable 2- We don’t have non-veg food in our hostel 3- I had had my lunch at 1.30 and after that, I hadn’t got a chance to eat anything. Finally I reached my hostel around 12 and its 1.20 now.

Here I would like to give my college juniors an advice. Enjoy as much as u can in the present phase of your life. Its going to be living hell for you once you enter the corporate world..In short, Yeh Zindagi na milegi dobara.. I miss my parents most, n yeah, my friends too..n also, some those-who-should-not-be-named people too ;) (P.S.- No Voldermots)..Chalo yar, sone chalta hoon..bahut tired hei jaichi..subha ratri :)

Signing Off
A.M.

The New Odyssey

And finally I am back. I must say that no one but me was most disappointed at not being able to get an opportunity of updating my blog, but now that I have got a lappy finally, that is no more an issue. But yes, I am not sure when I will get a chance to update this post on my blog coz I still don’t have an internet connection, but not an issue, I am blogging, privately, if you at all call it blogging.

Before I talk about anything else, I would first like you to introduce the new entity in my life, my lappy.. Dashing and red and sexy!! Oops, sorry for all those people who would call my description blasphemy ;) but c’mon it is what it is.. Now I still couldn’t purge my love for red and black, my bag, my specs, my not-so-hunky but lovely bike, half of my tees-jeans combo, everything is red and black, and now my lappy.. Now someone once told me red and black represents ultimate power and authority!!phew!!Now whatever it is, it just appeases the opthalmic lobes of my brain..Chalo, topic change

Lemme tell you a bit about my new life.. What do you guess it must be?Exciting??Stimulating??Motivating?? I would be really grateful if you can actually explain it what it is..How would you feel if you are built a luxurious house in the midst of a forest? N yeah, when it contains all amenities, you have an AC and it runs 24/7, well, not coz m not energy conscious but because they don’t provide me a remote and theres nothing I can do about it. Theres a LCD TV too, but suddenly I have lost all my interest to watch television.. A well furnished single room in which I can make my woofer to play “I can be your hero baby” at a high volume and dream about some hypothetical babe and still write a blog with no one to disturb.. And yeah, I wanna boast about something, my friends say I should get the tidiest room award and I am like soo soo flaterred about it, don’t think my mom will actually believe..but puttar sudhar gaya mamma ;).

The campus is a green campus, one of the most exquisite Industrial campus you can think of, but to add to that, you can find snakes outside our hostel.. Theres a gym too, but as usual, I am too lazy to go, I hope my girl won’t mind my 1-pack :P. I can’t tell you much about work coz since the last 14 days, we sit in a room listening to the most monotonous lectures in the world back to back for 8 hrs. And the worst part is I have been caught dozing by the lecture guys with my head swaying like a drunkard.. Though I am not the only one who dozes so very often, but being pointed out among 45 and being politely asked to go out and wash your face is some sort of a ID. Damn, they don’t even berate you, that makes it feel even more guilty. This happened to me last in 1st year coz that was probably when I used to regularly attend classes, c’mon I am causing serious offence to the word “regular” :P.

Now theres nothing more in the campus, even for getting the least amenities, you need to go to around 10 kms from here. And worse is that, the company doesn’t allow bikes inside the campus. And if u get a bike, u have to keep it near the main gate which is around a km from our hostey!! All you can do sync your timings with the company buses..Believe me, it feels like being trapped in hell.. And about friends, they are good..my closest here yet being a tamil guy, I dunno how I get hold of tamils :D..

And going to Bhubaneswar from here is the easiest thing to do. Its nearly a 2 hr ride by train and perfectly synced with my office timings. But I am not very excited about it. My parents are gonna shift to balasore soon. Though it takes the same time to reach there, but the timings are really odd :(. I just hope my parents allow me to get my bike and allow me to ride it to balasore (which actually is an overexpectation). But whatever, its real fun driving fast on the highway blasting away the wind.

Now whatever it is, there inside lies a feeling, which makes me oblivious to everything to everythings that’s happening around me, I feel numb, my emotions seem unfeeling to me. Leave that, theres nothing much I can say about that. Neither am I sad nor am I happy. I am…well I leave it for you to complete. Between we had a non-evaluatory ppt 2day, and out of 7 in our group, the judge indirectly mentioned that I spoke well, so I have that well-done-dude to myself feeling ;), I often do blandish myself a lot..hehe.. Chalo, dinner time, m missin my moms food..I will update more things soon..Till then,

Sigining Off
A.M.