I am not really sure how to begin this post. The reason being, a hell lot of thoughts occupies my mind now, more than the capacity my head can accommodate. I hope my my head doesn’t burst away. I don’t really mean I am tensed or something, but I can’t really define what the feeling is. Its kind of being lost in the doldrums. A few days ago, in the long gaps btw our sems, I was watching the movie kung fu panda for the 2nd time, I must say I just luv dat movie n m sure u do too. I would like to quote a dialogue from out der “yesterday is history, tomorrow is a mystery, today is a gift, may be that is why it is called present”. I must say that those compact lines were very inspiring. But the problem is I often get lost thinking about the mystery than making proper utilization of the present.
So that’s the end of a 4 year long journey. I am not sure what useful I did in these 4 years, not sure how close I got in attaining my ambitions, not sure how much I did what I shouldn’t have done or how much I didn’t do what I should hav done, but yea, theres something that leaves me wondering. And what I wonder is, when last I wondered so much. Yea that’s true. Never before I had such a feeling. May be the attachment turned out too strong now. Ya, m talking about my college, my friends, the days spent, the memories blah blah. Well, I hate being sentimental, but the fact is I often do manifest what I hate, I always end up what I don’t want to be. I hate all those facebook status of my friends that reminds me of the fact that it’s over. Its time to go in all different directions. I hate the feeling of separation, something, I never felt before. Now forget that, as I said I don’t want to aggravate my emotions or else you will shed out some tears :D
Anyway, but there are things worse than that, and one among that is leaving home. Theres been just one occasion when I had been out of home for 2 months, but that was different, I was still a student. There were no tensions or at least less. But now its totally a different world of affairs. 1st thing, I will be missing my parents more than anything else.. 2nd I dunno how I am going to handle the new world, new friends, staying in hostel, going to work at 8 in the morning and may be come back at 7 or more at night. Everything about those things gives me such a weird feeling, I feel my existence like an alien to myself. And to more than that, I have to make even more efforts to make life a bit kind to me as it has turned out to be a bitch in the last few months..Aah!! I don’t wana remember that, yesterday is history indeed..Honestly, I wasn’t too intent to express those feelings in my blog but I feel good when I express..So, so be it, if not anyone else, y not tell my bloggie darling ;)
Signing Off
A.M.
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- A.M.
- Well me!!umm..A tough one to express..but still often the simplest to understand. Love me, hate me, care for me or whatever-if your feelings are sincere, I intend to give back just in the same way. But, mind it, I am not a endorser of the “Give and Take” policy. Cool and light-hearted , blithe and non-chalant, I can just be the Tom every Jerry z looking for or vice versa :P. However, better don’t give in to my grave countenance, looks can indeed be deceptive!! Not someone who likes maintaining too high profile, but yeah, wanna be the best in the limited edition (if it is at all something that you can interpret). The temper of a tempest but still the master of jest, I love breathing the air, singing the song, gorging on the food and being lost in my own dreams and basking in the glory of something that’s god-gifted- Life . Happiness and cheer is my USP. And my recipe. Well, a lil hard with my ego and sensitivity at times, but I think that’s better being ignored. The most self-contrasting package, may not be complete, but just about optimum, that’s me . Be my friend and you will never regret, and if u do, kahani abhi baki hai mere dost ;)
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