But it wasn’t like that then. It was good. It seemed that the network was weak, the signal was poor, but I doubt if it ever was. It was probably the strongest matching of frequencies, the crests thoroughly reigning over the troughs, it was resonance at several intervals, though not clearly evident, but it definitely was. Why then everything got modulated?
Well, it all stays a mystery. It always will, unless the carrier waves enable the original signal to propagate in the reverse direction. And it would take time. Light year indeed is some distance to cover. The observer still believes that the source has a slight bias towards it, may be some fine day, it would have never wanted to go so far apart, may be someday not just the network would have sufficed to connect strongly, but rather there would have been a consensus among them that it always had been that strong, may be someday the proximity would have been too high, but “may be”s are again a probabilistic possibility.
Sometimes I wonder was the time taken justified? And then I get the feeling it was it was just the optimum I waited. It was just the optimum I revealed. It was just the perfect amount I displayed. It was the best I did or could have done or should have done. But the apprehension of being left alone as a mere observer looking at the horizon aimlessly at the source scares me. However I am aware and have very well accepted the fact that there live so many observers in there and the source could always deserve better.
Understandings and no-understandings are acceptable in life, they make your life, but misunderstandings break it, they make the source-observer pair incapable of standing together, to their dismay, destroying all the understanding they ever had. So it is better to let go before getting into a situation where it becomes too hard to accept that it was never there, never could have been, though it should have been and if it would have and if by the quirk of fate, it would ever be, then it will paint magic into life, even then it would take time, wont it? The source and the observer are still miles away, gravitational pull has lost all hope, will the heart be able to generate a “cardiological” pull strong enough to counter the nature’s forces? That remains a question and the answer stays hidden in the mystery that how well the networks ever got connected.
Signing off
A.M.
We humans are a big mystery! The tendency to believe that the source deserves the best, kills the delicate relationship that a observer has with a source! The very moment we decide the connection what we have is not sufficient, the very next moment we break it up! That definitely rules out the reason for being afraid. It is alright to be afraid! I sincerely believe that it's better to live with not having a perfect understanding than to die with misunderstanding! Cause you can always work on the not-understanding part. But misunderstandings makes everything look volatile. If it has all gone back to cracking the right code, then at least one should let the source know why there was a breach. And the rest fate will figure out for you. But then hope is the only thing that keeps you alive! So no matter how weak the connection becomes, if there was a connection earlier, it will build its own path again. I hope the source chooses the right signal transmitted by the observer. :)
Well i must say, you have a very unique way of expressing your thoughts. If you want them to be heard, you make it very clear and if you want them to be deciphered, you hide them in between the lines.... I loved it. :) And i hope i have deciphered it in a right way.. :D